When one is embarking on a probably-lifelong adventure to find and fun herself, one must be open to signs. One must be open to taking notes.
READ:
“Things that make me happy”
- not working at Job A
- working at Job B
- having enough money to pay my bills (this incurs “The dance of capitalist superiority“)
- Warcraft
- sleeping in
- Movies
- Writing
- McDonald’s cheeseburgers, ketchup and onions only
- my kids
- my computers
- being able to walk around naked in my own apartment
- my boyfriend, when he actually shows up when he says he will
- chocolate ice cream
- the idea of learning new things
- the idea of learning some sort of stylized fighting or swordplay
- being a superhero, ala Iron Man (okay omfg plez go see that, mmkay?)
- reading
- hanging out with Rynie and Chee
- Cleaning (in a very cathartic sort of way)
Okay, so that’s pretty much everything that makes me happy. No, wait!
- pretty heels
- pretty lingerie
- gorgeous bras
- finding that I’ve lost 4lbs over the course of the day.
So now that we’ve established that I’m definitely a, er, female (or at least a somewhat petite drag queen), we can move on. Normally, I would construct a large graph to showcase the amount of “like” that is proportionate to each item, but that’s just a bit too geeky for me right now, especially at 10am CST.
Let’s go down the list, shall we?
- not working at Job A
Obviously, this is key. When you work 80 hours a week, you do get burnout because all you’re fucking doing IS working. Ideally, i would quit this job. However, the longer I put up with it, the more cash I will have in my savings. And who knows, if I keep getting yelled at on a weekly-if-not-daily basis, I’ll end up quitting over the summer. But hopefully not before I’ve saved cash. Because while I do make enough at Job B to support myself, it’s only just enough - no extra for shopping or even saving.
- working at Job B
I love my design job. I can work from home, in my damn pjs, or even naked if I wanted to. My boss is awesome and doesn’t talk down to me. He’s very patient with me. Plus, uh, hello, I work for a Warcraft website!! How awesome is that?!?
- having enough money to pay my bills (this incurs “The dance of capitalist superiority“)
Uh, duh. See “not working at Job A” above.
- Warcraft
Warcraft allows me to escape from my 80 hr work weeks. But I can’t play a lot anymore because of, uh, working 80 hours.
- sleeping in
Because, hello, see #1 up there.
- Movies
Escapism.
- Writing
See above.
- McDonald’s cheeseburgers, ketchup and onions only
This is a throwback. I rarely got to eat McDonald’s as a kid because of finances and a bitchy mother, bent on making life horrible, so i now eat them whenever I want. of course, that usually means only once every other month or so. It’s an acquired taste.
- my kids
I cannot express strong enough words to make you understand how much I love my zoo. It’s a sore spot with Chee, what with his constant “why don’t you give them away?” bullshit. These are my children. I will always have them. Look, if I’m giving up my animals because of some lame reason like “my boyfriend obviously forgot that I had them when he was pursuing me and now wants me to get rid of them and then get another dog several years down the line”, then what’s next? Giving up our real kids to the state? “Yeah, sorry, babe. Jack and Ella were pissing me off with their whining. And you weren’t here to deal with it so… I just called CPS to come pick them up. Oh, don’t worry. We’ll have another in a few years or so. But only a quiet one, okay?” Back to my kids: I am seriously in love with them. Yes, I bitch about them, but I understand why they bitch. They rarely see me anymore, and when they do, they’re stuck to my side like glue. Always wanting to be held and petted. They make me so blissfully happy. Even Kitty, who’s laying on my chest right now as I type this. I love them all.
- my computers
Computers are to Mia like sunshine is to a flower. Not only do i use them for work, I love using them for play. Computer games, design, general surfing of the net. Eight years ago, i would have never predicted that I’d love my computer as much as I do. I feel like a stalker.
- being able to walk around naked in my own apartment
The freedom to eat what I want, when I want. To listen to whatever I want. To watch whatever I want. My freedom is important to me. I dont have to answer any “why’s”.
- my boyfriend, when he actually shows up when he says he will
Yes, aside from all of the bullshit, he is a great guy and I do love him. Not in an obsessive kind of way, mind you. But in a “I never thought I’d fit with anyone this way” way. We make sense.
- chocolate ice cream
Again, a McDonald’s kind of thing. Now that I can have it whenever I want, I only want it maybe once a month.
- the idea of learning new things
I like learning about new things. Granted, I don’t retain any of it. Maybe that’s why I love learning.
- the idea of learning some sort of stylized fighting or swordplay
Dude, you cannot watch Enter The Dragon and tell me you DONT want to learn how to do that?!?
- the idea of being a superhero, ala Iron Man (okay omfg plez go see that, mmkay?)
Who doesn’t want to be fucking Iron Man? Shit, I’d just settle for being Tony Stark.
- reading

Nuff Said.
- hanging out with Rynie and Chee
And it’s true. As lonery as I am, I do love hanging out with two of my three best friends. If Lola lived out here, I’d totally be at her house now, hanging by the pool and waiting for the cabana boy to bring me my margarita.
- Cleaning (in a very cathartic sort of way)
Cleanliness is next to Godliness. or something. I just like everything being in order. I guess it’s because my head is in such a state most of the time.
- pretty heels
Nuff said.
- pretty lingerie
Nuff said.
- gorgeous bras
Nuff said.
- finding that I’ve lost 4lbs over the course of the day.
Nuff said.
So basically, I suppose I’m saying that I like mundane things and I need to knock some stuff off of the list or add some stuff in order to find what exactly can/will make me happy.